by B, Sacramento
One of my favorite hobbies is music! I like to write, sing, rap. It’s therapy for me. Most people write poems, write in anger. Talk about their feelings. And nine times out of ten, people hear you, give you advice, and don’t care.
So I turned to my booklet, wrote my feelings down in rhymes, showed a homie, and he felt what I was speakin’ in my song. He liked it and that gave me confidence in my written music. Pretty soon the whole one tier pod was asking me to hear my “isms”, as I call them.
Because they can relate to what I say. I don’t need a therapist to give me advice. My music is my therapy. Even the ones on the radio playing. It was an incident between me, disagreeing with a staff in a couple tier dorm last year. It just happened to happen a new hit song was on the radio.
I felt what the artist was saying. The music uplifted my mood. I felt the musical keys and notes surround me and release stress and tension that was building in me. Now, most artists blow up on a catchy song, but they spend the real “isms” and pain in they life to make the audience feel where they coming from.
I’m going to let my story be heard with the same technique. I’m only nineteen with two strikes, with a tribe of kids and wonders waiting for me on the outs! Now if I had to change one thing, it will be the way I think! Most of the things I used to do don’t phase me no more.
Homies, family, can’t break my mindset because my mind is set on the bigger picture. The one, “Allah”, has provided the great mercy He has given to me in blessings. I’m so thankful for the outlets he has provided for me. A “sanctuary” here, locked up, to get my mind right when the “devil” knocks me off the glorious, righteous path.
A simple reset before He test me in life again. Slowly, but forsurely, that one thing, my mindset, is set free of wrongdoings, switched out with good. So spending time, praying, talking to the one has opened my mind to my favorite hobby, music.
Spending time with my daughter. I was on the patch of destruction till He gave me the blessing of a daughter. Changed me completely. Thank you. The most merciful. Inshallah.