by PR, Sonoma
My dad has never came through or kept to his promises. I guess me and my sisters weren’t his first priority and he never tried to be there for us.
To me, it made me feel alone, neglected, and not worth being with. To be honest, I wish I had an answer because I never knew what was going on in my dad’s mind. I always thought it was because I wasn’t good enough or didn’t turn out as my dad wanted me to look like but to this day, I still don’t know. You know I thought I was pushing through it, but I didn’t realize I was giving up the whole time.
I wish I realized it first and would’ve pushed instead of letting me get pushed. But you know, I was little and scared, especially dealing with being beaten all my life that I never had a chance to push, and I wish I had more control.