by Efren Bullard
I will continue to search me and try to understand me. I sit here thinking about life all the time wondering, “Who am I?” I’m the guy who likes to sit on the beach looking at the ocean crash into itself while the moon sits over the water allowing you to see how beautiful it really is.
I’m the guy who thinks about taking a trip up to Big Bear in the winter just to look at the animals play in the snow. I’d like to watch the eagles fly as well as sit at the top of the tallest tree and look out into the blue sky to find their food.
Wouldn’t it be nice to pick someone special and go to dinner and allow her to order the most beautiful food the eyes have ever seen; just to eat it and smile as she chews her food?
It would be real nice to go the Boys and Girls Club and play a game of basketball with them while hitting a three pointer with my Kobe jersey on. Drive on the freeway in the middle of the night while listening to “Broken Clocks” by SZA and “Talk” by Khalid. Have you ever thought about walking in the Mall looking at all the people shop while you just smile on the inside because life is so beautiful?
Get in your car and go to the Car Wash and wash your car even though your car isn’t dirty. LOL. Yeah, see a homeless person on the street and give them a few dollars even though you only have a few dollars. Look up to God and say, THANK YOU for allowing me to live in a world that I took for granted once upon a time.
Ask God to forgive you for all the wrongs that you have done in this life. Pull up to mom’s house and just chill with her because you have missed so many days, nights, weeks, months, and years of eating her good cooking. Fall asleep on the sofa and wake up in the morning to a really good hot breakfast.
Get in your car, drive home, take a hot shower and go to a Lakers vs Golden State game. Watch Steph Curry score 50 points, but the Lakers still win. Drive home happy thinking about all the times you was stuck in a situation that you created. Now you have the opportunity to make a difference in the world when for over two decades you sat and soaked in pure ignorance wishing you could change it all.
Sit in your new place with lots of friends watching the the 49ers vs. LA Rams in the NFC Championship with the 49ers blowing them out 42 to ZERO! The whole house goes crazy with happiness as Aaron Donald walks off the field mad. LOL.
Life is so beautiful when you can dream of all the things you would like to do. While you are just sitting in your personal space right now, do what I continue to do and dream.
Life is never over until the final door is closed on you. Continue to do all things positive and focus on your life in the best way because life is all about growth and understanding. The moment you have growth and understanding, forgiveness is there for you.
Long as I live I will try to make all of my dreams come true. PEACE & BLESSINGS TO EVERYONE IN THE WORLD. KEEP DREAMING.