by Moguttah
I say I’m sorry for that shhh that I done did
And I’m thankful for that shhh
That you had done when we was kids
I’m steady screaming, RIP Heem
‘Cause when he died, we was kids
I put my pain in this letter
‘Cause when they hear it, they like, damn
Forget live and deceased
‘Cause these ninjas ‘round me wanna live
I’ll hate to show out for the hype
‘Cause them people never cared
My lil’ brother had a baby
I promised I’ll be there
When they gave me two years
I couldn’t show it, but I cared
So much pain in my eyes
When they see me they be scared
Lost my soul to these streets
But for my momma, I’ll be here
So much drugs in my system
Where was God when I was dead?
They gave me a second chance
But I blew it
That got my mom sad
I ask my momma what she want
She said for her son to be in class
All them people I done hurt
It’s messed up, but it’s the past
I gotta make my momma proud
‘Cause when they see me, they just laugh
Apologies to them people that I hurt
‘Cause this pain, it don’t last
Got shot a couple times
But God kept me from that bag
When you stare down a barrel
It’s like looking in my eyes
Came from a whole lot of poverty
And a whole lot of cries
So when you see me in that school
Told them people, don’t be surprised
My apologies