-B, Sacramento
My first experience with true love, pure love is with my daughter. My moms tried to provide that for me. My child’s mother tried to give that to me, but the love my mother showed me didn’t process in my mind what it really was.
So, I suffered from abandonment issues and I would push away the people who loved me, until I met my daughter in person. It changed my whole world and perspective on love and how to love, so I’ve been working on myself.
You have to love yourself before you love someone else, so with my time, I’m learning to love myself. Through my journey I’m taking to find myself and the things that I actually love to do were surprising at first. It was surprising because I didn’t love myself.
No one showed me to love myself, so I’ve been working on it with self-reflection. I love the change and the progress I made. I’ve come a long way. I used to fake it to make it, but I learned some patience and now I’m one of the greatest in the making.
I know I love to put my mind to work. What I mean is I like challenges it doesn’t matter what it is. Once I’m comfortable with the challenge, I get it done. I love working out; being fit and healthy is one of many challenges. I love my humble and quiet approach to these obstacles.
I love to express myself through writing or verbal art as in raps, or singing. I’m not the best singer but I try and eventually will execute. I love eating healthy. I love talking about stuff other than drama. I love to help others and give back. I’m very passionate about helping others, the unfortunate. My beliefs and religion covers that.
I love to confide in people about issues, especially to God. He is the best listener and giver of advice. I learned self-love and higher-power love. Now I want to take what I learned about love and pass it on the best way I can. Love is caring and comforting. Before love, all I knew was loyalty. If there’s loyalty then there is some type of love.
My downfall for love is that I fall easily, and it was addicting to feel that way. Scientists discovered that love makes the same chemicals in your brain as drugs do. When I’m around this special lady, I’m so high I can’t even speak. I admire her from afar but also up close.
Some might think it’s wrong, but it feels right. It’s easy to talk to her about problems. I’m a closed person, but around her I’m open. When I don’t see her I lose the oxygen out of my lungs, but when I do see her my oxygen comes back. She is my sun to my galaxy.