by Zariah, San Mateo
When I look at my life and where I’m heading, I take a step back and pause. I know my life isn’t a hundred percent healthy, but physically I am healthy. Mentally and internally, I am not a hundred percent there.
At times, I feel like I am internally fading away in the abyss. The people I associate with and call a relationship at least took a part of me. Every time I would try to make a healthy relationship, a little piece of my compassion for a person would fade away. My mind isn’t always the healthiest part of my body. With these thoughts I think it can bring down my mood, but I’m slowly starting to regain my consciousness and my compassion.
It was never lost, but the hole internally was patching up piece by piece. I’m getting back to the healthy life, the healthy mind, and the healthy body I once had before. To be the best I’ve ever been, I need to be more open-minded, more confident, and more spiritual like I was before. I need to stop being so open to trust and let people in without looking at them inside and out. I always feel sorrow for others’ problems.
I need to learn how to take a big step on my own instead of thinking I need to have company. Once I finally learn how to achieve those, I will finally be at peace mentally, emotionally, physically, and internally, to achieve a healthy body, mind, healthy habits, and even relationships. I need to be at peace with myself and my life. If I’m not, then I will continue to be unhappy with everyone and everything I create. I will finally head in the right direction.
Finally, I will know how to treat myself in the way I look at things.