by Jon Goldberg, San Quentin State Prison, CA I have just recently discovered my ideal job would be a clinical psychologist, specializing in family/couples therapy. All my life I searched for my “one person” that could be my wife and start a family. At age 26 I quit looking and concentrated on my property. I decided my dog and I didn’t need anyone else. The minute I stopped looking she found me. By 27 years old I was beginning the most serious relationship, the one I always dreamed of. A year later I proposed. A year after that I was
Continue ReadingI’ve Found the Cure for Depression Is Action
by Flo, San Quentin State Prison, CA Years of trauma and tribulation went into the development of my depression. Even now, with the depression and stress management tools I have acquired, very recently, doesn’t completely eradicate the deep rooted depression I have. However, the lessons I have learned about depression, the details I have learned about myself, the advice from wise people that I’ve accepted has helped me manage stress and depression in a way that I likely wouldn’t have, had I not put forth the action. Today, I’m still learning myself, still, figuring out what works. I’ve learned it’s
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Santa Clara County COVID Spedal Edition
Most Thursdays my friend and I would meet at Blue Mango, a cozy Thai restaurant just five minutes away from Santa Clara Juvenile Hall where we ran writing workshops for The Beat Within each week at 6:30 p.m. This particular Thursday evening was March 5, 2020. As we slurped up our noodles, my phone buzzed with a text. Another volunteer had decided not to facilitate due to the reported dangers of Covid. I must admit to being slightly frazzled. I respected her decision, but it gave us a problem for the evening. We would be short of facilitators and that
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Volume 27.39/40
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Continue ReadingEd Note 27.39/40
It has been one heck of a busy year for The Beat Within. As most of you know, we have been doing the good workday in and day out in our efforts to bring the best program to the sites we visit, and of course bring you the one and only publication that truly matters when it comes to giving voice to those within the walls of the system and beyond. As we put the final touches on this latest issue, we take a moment to look ahead to 2023, and we certainly anticipate more of the same work
Continue ReadingThe Darkness Increases The Value Of The Light
by D, Sacramento I have a deep connection to this quote. Right after reading this, I got a weird feeling in my chest. It wasn’t sadness, nervousness, or happiness. I don’t know what to call it. I think the reason for this is because I tell myself and others this every day. I always say, “You’re not gonna be here forever. Keep your head up.” Sometimes, when I tell people this, I see a sparkle of hope in their eyes. Other times, I see deep anguish, hopelessness, like they don’t believe one single thing that I said. It’s how I
Continue ReadingMy Gains and Losses
by Julian, Santa Clara I’ve gained and lost a lot being in the streets, I’ve lost my freedom, family friends, money, support, along with many other things. Unfortunately, those are the consequences. Losing a loved one to the streets is one of the hardest things to deal with whether that means to violence, addiction, poverty, etc. I regret the things I’ve missed out due to my actions. Until this day I’m still missing out on the things like I should be there for like the birth of my child. There was a point in time where I had nothing but
Continue ReadingMy Plan When I Get Out
by BA, San Mateo I am hoping to get out soon so I can get a job to get me some money and I’m going to keep doing my work so I can graduate here in the hall and keep doing well here so I get out soon. I’m improving in so many ways that I thought I would never improve like I’ve improved in school and I remember I would never like school or doing work but now I like school and hopefully if I get out soon I will still go to school and graduate. If not I’ll
Continue ReadingWords Do Hurt
by Patrick Demery, San Quentin State Prison, San Quentin, CA Richard Wright in the novel, Native Sun, “You’re trying to believe in yourself and every time you try to find a way to live, your own mind stands in the way.” You know what that is? It’s because others have said that you were bad and they make you live in bad conditions. When a man hears that over and over and looks about him and sees that life is bad, he begins to doubt his own mind. His feelings drag him forward and his mind, full of what others
Continue ReadingDear At Risk Youth & Foster Children of America
by Freddy Huante, San Quentin State Prison, San Quentin, CA My name is Freddy Huante, I am currently in prison and wanted to write to you about my own life experiences. As I too have been lost within the Foster Care System. My goal is to inspire you to make better decisions that I did. Yes, I used to be in your shoes and I made some very poor choices, choices that landed me in prison, serving a term of four life sentences for murder, the taking of a human life, three counts of attempted murder, with one count of
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