Today at this very moment, Tuesday I feel so low, so sad. I don’t know what to think anymore. I’m stuck in Juvenile Hall just thinking about where did I go wrong? I feel so bad hurting the people I love so much. I just want to talk to them tell them how sorry I was and never meant to hurt them at all.
What hurts me the most is when I look back at that court room I see them all, I see him. How could he be so strong and still smile at me? I love him for that but I hate myself. When did I ever become so evil? I wish I could tell you my inner thoughts and let you know how thankful I am to have you in my life. I never want to regret losing you. So for you I’ll take all the help I need to better myself.
I wake up thinking positive that one day I will be clean. That I can look at you and smile and not regret anything. I just hope you can wait a little longer for me. I know you’ve been waiting forever but don’t lose hope. I’m tired of being behind bars and stopping our dreams because of me.
It’s time to make a change and for us I have hope I can change. Believe it or not but throughout all the mistakes I’ve done. I love you and will always do because when I turn around in that court room your there and even when things don’t turn out right your still there with a smile and I appreciate that and to show it back I want to do things good for us because I know that’s all you wanted.
In these four years every time I look back your there and its time we deserve this.